Move on like you were given an iPhone because you did something stupid

Anyways, ang pagmo-move on. Parang ang hirap gawin. Medyo. Sa una, syempre. Mga 3 hours to 1 day from the break-up ang pinaka mahirap na phase ng pagle-let go. Fresh pa kasi ang memory from the first meeting, first text, first call, first hug, first kiss hanggang sa mismong moment ng paghihiwalay.

                Normal lang umiyak, maglupasay, magpakalasing sa kape at magsulat ng suicidal note at isa-isahing banggitin sa sulat ang mga kamag-anak, kaibigan, hanggang sa babae o lalakeng nang-agaw ng jowa mo sa’yo. Healthy yan. Kasi pagtapos mo umiyak, medyo okay ka na. Marerealize mo na dapat di ka masyadong nagpaka-Basha o Popoy dahil lang sa ipinagpalit ka.

                Hindi din natin masisisi ang mga kaibigan natin na hanggang ngayon ay nasa phase pa din ng first 3hours to 1day of moving on kahit na ilang taon na nakipag-break sa kanila ang kani-kanilang mga jowa. Mahirap magmahal, pag nag-bf o gf ka, dapat ihanda mo sarili mo, kasi may chance na may mangyari na hindi mo gusto. Sa mga sobrang na-crushed nga ng break up, yung iba hindi na nag-asawa, nawalan na ng trust sa sarili at sa ibang tao yun na din yung way nila para hindi na masaktan pa ulit, yung iba naman naging kabaligtaran, naging salawahan o mas madami pa, para maprotektahan din ang sarili nila mula sa heart break. Promise, yung mga two timers, nasa moving on phase pa lang yan.

                May iba’t ibang klase ng mga nagmo-move on level, yung iba defense mechanism, yung iba naman parang trip lang talaga nila na maging ganun. Una;

1.       The Actor.

Halimbawa:

Kaibigan1: P’re, balita ko nagbreak na kayo ng GF mo, okay ka na?

Ikaw: OO NAMAN P’RE! (naka-two thumbs up pa) ANG SAYA KO NA NGA EH! WALA NA MAGBABAWAL SA AKIN, WALA NA MANGUGULIT KUNG UMUWI NA BA AKO, WALA NA MAGPAPAALALA SA’KIN NA KUMAIN ON TIME, WALA NA MAGBABAWAL SA AKIN MAG-DOTA, WALA NA AKONG IHAHATID AT I-GOGOODBYE KISS…. (singhot) WALA NA AKONG BABATIIN NG HAPPY MONTHSARY.. WALA NA..

HUHUHUHU..

Kaibigan1: P’re, umiiyak ka ba?

            Okay, base sa ating example, alam niyo na kung ano ang ibig sabihin ng Actor. Siyempre, playing strong ka muna, aarte ka na parang walang nangyari, pride mo na din, nakakahiya naman sa mga macho mong tropa. Pero deep inside, malungkot ka, o depress ka. Depende kung pa’no mo i-take yung break up. Minsan kasi, si Kaibigan1 ang tanga lang din magtanong. Kung isa ka sa mga Kaibigan1, wag ka na magtanong, alam mo naman sagot eh, tanungin mo na lang kung gutom siya at yayain mo siya kumain ng fishball, in that way, medyo malilimutan na niya ang ex niya at malay mo, ang mga broken kasi madalas, galante yan, may chance na mailibre ka pa.

2.       The Stalker

Halimbawa:

            Araw-araw ka naka-online at nakatambay sa FB wall ng ex mo, inaabangan mo kasi kung magpalit na siya ng relationship status niya at pipilitin mo i-connect sa sarili mo ang bawat FB post at tweets niya. Iniisa isa mo din ang mga bagong pictures niya at kinikilala yung mga kasama niya sa picture na di mo pa name-meet at paghihinalaan mong bago niyang jowa. At dahil dun, magpopost ka naman ng mga pasaring, palipad hangin o indirect quotes patama sa kanya.

              Lahat ng nakipag-break, lahat ng nagmo-move on ay mga Stalker. Hindi lang sa gusto mong updated sa happenings ng ex mo, at kung paano niya i-handle ang break up niyo o ano na siya ngayon at break na kayo. Pride mo na naman kasi yan, lalo na kung kakabreak niyo lang ay may bago na siyang ka-PDA sa FB. Siyempre, pag may bago na siya, hahanap ka na din ng ka-PDA, ang bad lang dun kung wala kang makita na makikipaglandian at makikipag wall-to-wall sa’yo sa FB. Normal yan. Wag mo maliitin sarili mo. Wag ka na lang maghanap ng ka-PDA. Tignan mo yung ex mong may bagong ka-PDA, eh, kakabreak niyo lang, mukhang timang, bakit? Kasi lantaran niyang pinapakita na pinagtatakpan niya ang sarili niya na kunwari hindi siya nasaktan at ang ganda o ang gwapo niya dahil may bago siyang kalandian. Feeler lang. E, ano naman kung silent ka lang? In that way, mas madaling magmove on. Kasi walang gumugulo sa’yo. Wag kang hahanap ng rebound, babangasan kita! Sige! Sinaktan ka na nga, at alam mo na yung feeling ng nasaktan tapos maghahanap ka pa ng uto-uto, tapos papadama mo sa kaniya yung ganoong feeling? Ang bad mo naman.

Symptoms na di ka na Stalker:

·         Wall mo na lang pinapakialaman mo, o di kaya yung wall ng bago mong crush.

·         Di na connected sa kaniya ang mga post mo at di ka na nagsi-share ng mga video from YouTube nang iba’t ibang version ng theme song niyo.

·         Pag nakita mo sa News Feed yung mga post niya, di ka na curios.

·         Last, nila-like mo na yung mga post niya.

Okay din ako sa pagba-block ng ex sa FB, kasi sa totoo lang, ang mas hindi makakatulog sa scenario na yun ay yung nablock. Kasi for sure, yung blocked ex mo, gustong gusto mag-stalk nun, kaso wala na siyang access sa account mo. Mas map-prevent mo ang ka-feeling-an ng ex mo at mas mapapadali ang pagmo-move on.

3.       The Ninong

Halimbawa:

                Isang gabi.. May nareceive kang text mula sa ex mo.

Ex: hi gndang gbi.. kmusta?

Ikaw: Hello! =)) Okay lang naman ako.. Ikaw? Buti naman nagtext ka.

Ex: ah.. my ttnungin sna aq..

Ikaw: Ah, ano ba yun? =)))))

Ex: my xtra lod ka b? ppsalod nman ng 15.. im4tant lng..

Ikaw: Ah, okay. Wait! ^^

(sending load…… sent!)

Ikaw: Receive mo na ba?

Ex: oo.. ty.

Ikaw: Okay lang, ikaw pa.. Malakas ka sa akin eh.. =)) Kamusta ka na ba?

Ikaw: Uy!

Ikaw: Honebaby?

Ikaw: Reply naman dyan..

Ikaw: L

Ikaw: Tulog ka na ba?

Ikaw: Baka tulog ka na nga.. Goodnight. Text ka na lang bukas. Miss you! <3

Another Halimbawa:

Isang gabi, habang nag-FB ka. Nag-chat sa’yo ang ex mo.

Ex: J

Ikaw: J

Ex: pwede palike?

Ikaw: Okay, amin na yung link.

Based sa ating mga halimbawa, alam mo na ito. Masyado kang mabait sa ex mo, parang Ninong/ Ninang. Galante ka din. Teka, ex mo na nga siya eh. Technically, wala ka na responsibility sa kaniya. Obvious na kaya ka mabait ay dahil may hope ka pa na bumalik siya. Eto ang gawin mo, play tough. Play astig. Wag na masyado maawa. Pride naman gamitin mo dito. Kung may chance pa na magbalikan kayo, hindi na kelangan ang pagiging galante o mapagbigay. Isipin mo ito, bigay ka ng bigay sa ex mo, naging mabait ka, nililibre mo pa din siya ng lunch. Sinusundo at inihahatid mo pa din siya. Nireregaluhan mo pa din siya, dinadala sa mga mamahaling lugar. Tapos nagkabalikan kayo. Bakit? Kasi nakonsensya si ex mo. Hindi sa mahal ka ulit niya. Sige mahal ka daw ulit niya. Gaano?

Eto factor’s percentage breakdown ng nakipagbalikan out of konsensya:

9%- Love as a jowa

45%- Malaki ang natitipid (dahil nalilibre sa pamasahe, pagkain at nakakapunta sa mga lugar na pang-rich)

25%- Uto- uto ka

20%- Maawain siya

            ________________

99%

99% pa lang yan, di pa kumpleto, yung 1% miscellaneous reasons na yun like, trip niya lang makipagbalikan, pogi or maganda ka, matalino ka, mabait ang parents mo, mabilis ang Wi-Fi connection niyo atbp.

Actually, ayoko magmagaling, kasi hindi naman talaga ako magaling sa pagmo-move on. Ayoko maging bihasa dahil sa hindi naman kailangang madaliin ang pagtanggap at pagle-let go. 

Alam mo, pinaka magandang gawin ay yung pasayahin mo na lang ang iyong sarili at little by little makakalimutan mo din siya. Ice cream, chocolate, DoTA, extra rice, Boracay at kung anu-ano pang magpapasaya sa'yo ay gawin mo.

Ikaw yan. Deserving ka maging masaya at maligaya. Magbigay ka ng time limit sa pag-iyak at pagdaramdam sa isang taong kung tutuusin naman ay hindi naman din mahalaga pag nawala. Mga 2hours-3days, after nun, maging okay ka na. Kasi ang ika-4 days na pagluluksa ay kaartehan mo na lang. Okay?

Sige, hanggang dito na lang! Hanggang sa muli! Apir! ✋

Enigma With Roses

By: Juan Sebastian Diego L. Sy

“We were racing each other on the top of the hill. Her laugh makes the little drum in my chest go frenzy. Her scent is like a freshly bloomed flower in the misty May. Unknowingly letting the playful wind caress her beautiful long hair. As she reached for my hand to make me run faster for I am deliberately feeling this great scene. I felt her soft right hand against mine, there are a sweet music playing inside my system--- She’s wonderful.

But with the steep curves of the hill, I can’t go faster as I expected. She won. She reached the top of the hill, right next in the mango tree, our little paradise. We used to stay there all day, just enjoying day’s blessings. Sleeping under the sweet shed of the leaves. She won. She won my heart.

She gave me the sweetest smile, as it is like she was congratulating me for finally reaching the top, and then I pulled her closer, just a breath away, I kiss her.

I can taste her lips, it feels like the first time, stirring and amazing, sweet and magnificent. I hold her face, just to lift it closer. She held me in the waist and kissed me back. I know she’s in her own world of loyalty, but it’s my duty to take her for just seconds away from her sanity with this rendezvous. I woke up--- back to certainty.”

I checked my time, it was almost 4 AM, and I can’t put myself back to sleep, I reached for my Ipod and search for the songs of our favorite artist, Ed Sheeran. I started with the song, “She”. Hoping to dream the same dream again.

There are times when I felt that I am just inlove.

I am just inlove with her tormenting dark eyes, her lips, her perfect curly hair back then, her laughter, beliefs, smile, voice, our songs. I am inlove with her.

 I know she’s not perfect but that what makes her special.  If only I can tell her how I feel but I know, action speaks louder than any words.

Sometimes I wish that feelings are always mutual. But this is the good news, yes, our feelings are similar, we are both in love. The bad news, I am inlove with her, and her with somebody else.

In many ways I had accepted it, it’s her happiness. That’s what I wish for her but it will be wonderful if I am the one making her feel that way. If only.

I am now her friend, which hopes to be with her forever. The things that I will left unsaid was the things that I might say in the future.

She might then realize that I am here. Waiting for her when they left her. But then, I pray for her the best life, it may possibly be with or without me.

 I know, this is the mystery, why we fall for the wrong person at the right time, but the truth is, we just fall inlove, there’s no wrong timing or wrong person. Everyone is a right person, everytime is the right time to love. It only gets wrong when you think you are wrong and you stopped loving.

Few seconds I’ve been dead to the world and dreamed of her again.

Ink blotted.

What you have red is the oeuvre from my good friend, which he gave to me, for I think he entrusted me one of the pages of his memoir. Hoping this is fiction. Talent, isn’t it? Well, moving on, back then, we used to compete for a writing contest and fortunately, we both became unfortunate. In a good way, that keeps the friendship going.

Though in some way, noticeably, he used my style when I wrote my blog, Distance Intervention.

Thinking of romantic thoughts really makes him clichéd but manly at the same time.

I will posts some of the writings of my friends, as soon as I get a good internet connection and time. Hihi.

Hope you enjoyed reading! J Have a nice day, love.

(Payabangan) Wala Kayo Sa Tatay Ko!

                Idol ko ang tatay ko! Noong bata pa ako, ang pinakamatalinong tao sa mundo ay ang tatay ko, lahat kasi ng tanong ko, nasasagot niya. Hanggang sa magka-edad na ako at narealize ko na hindi lang pala matalino ang tatay ko, matiyaga din, napakatiyaga na sagutin ang mga tanong na paulit ulit ko tinatanong at mga bagay na paulit ulit kong kinukwento tungkol sa mga napapanood ko sa T.V.

                    Bilib ako sa tatay ko, siya ang unang Magician na nakita ko! Kaya nyang gawing piso yung mga bagay na itinago niya sa ilalim ng panyo.

                    Madaming kaibigan ang papa ko, mabait kasi siya at palabiro. Ang alam ko, isa yun sa nagustuhan ng mama ko sa kanya, hindi pa puma-punchline, nakakatawa na.

                    Walang sinabi ang Google Translate sa papa ko! Kaya niyang magsalita ng English, Tagalog, Bisaya, Arabic, Malaysian at madami pang iba.

                    Mulit-talented ang tatay ko, kaya niyang ayusin ang pinakasirang sasakyan, magdrive ng malalaking truck, maging singer, comedian, technician, businessman to master chef!

                    Wag niyo na itanong kung gwapo ba ang tatay ko, kasi sasagutin ko kayo ng tanong din, “Itinatanong pa ba yan?” Saan ko pa ba mamamana ang kapogian ko? Ang kagwapuhan ng tatay ko ay pinagsamang Tom Cruise, Sylvester Stallone, Brad Pitt, Liam Neeson at konting Brucew Willis. Kaya nga napaibig niya yung mama kong kamukha ni Cameron Diaz, eh. Ikaw na bahala mag-imagine.

                    Pasensya na, ayoko mag mayabang, pero walang wala ang mga tatay niyo sa tatay ko! \m/

                    Every daughter will always be a Daddy’s girl. He will always be a first love. Si papa kasi yung shield natin mula kay mama pag papaluin na tayo, yung mga banat na, “Sige, isusumbong kita kay Papa!”

                    Ang mga papa natin, daig pa si Willie Revillame, sobrang galante. Kaya nga madalas natin siyang abangan sa gate kasi sigurado tayong pag umuwi siya ay laging may dalang pasalubong. Sino bang hindi naka-experience na, nabigyan na ng baon ni mama, tapos magtatanong yung papa natin kung may baon na tayo, tapos sasabihin nating wala pa?

                    There are no perfect father, but a father will always love perfectly.

                    Happy 51^st  Birthday papa! You will always be our strongest action superstar bida! I love you! J

Finish Line to Starting Line

Dear Sir Ma’am Soon-To-Be Mayor, Vice Mayor, Councilor, Congressman, Governor, Vice Governor, Senator,

Hello po! Ako po ay isang simpleng mamamayan sa bansang ‘Pinas. Hindi po ako representative ng kahit anong union at grupo ng mga kabataang aktibista sa mga lansangan. Isa lang po akong mamamayang Pilipino. Madaming tanong at madaming hiling. Gusto ko nga pong i-print itong sulat ko at ipaanod hanggang sa Malacañang, kaso baka hindi din makaabot at maisama pa sa mga basurang lumulutang sa ilog.

Una po sa lahat, pagkatapos po ng matamang pag-iisip sa not-so-offensive na intro, gusto ko pong malaman niyo na sino po ba ang di mawawalan ng pag-asa? Sa bawat eleksyon na dumaraan, pabanguhan na lang ng sariling pangalan at pilit na pinapalabas ang mabahong amoy na taglay ng kalaban. Ang pulitika ay isang maduming larangan, magulo, masalimuot, minsan akala mo personal interest, yun pala, public service, akala mo public service, yun pala personal interest na.

Sino po ba ang may gusto nang magulong pamahalaan? Wala. Wala namang gustong maguluhan eh. Pero tama nga sila, nagsisimula ang magulong pamahalaan sa magulong halalan. Mula sa pagpa-file sa COC hanggang sa campaign period hanggang sa mismong halalan, sa bawat sulok at anggulo, laging binabatikos ng magkabilang partido.

May tanong po ako noong wala pa po ako sa tamang edad para bumoto, bakit kaya di na lang magtulungan ang mga kandidato sa pagpapaunlad ng bansa? Bakit kailangan pa nila mag-away, magpatayan, magsiraan, gumastos ng napakalaki para lang sa isang pwesto na hindi naman panghabang buhay. Ako din pala ang makakasagot ng sarili kong tanong e, kailangan nila mag-away, magpatayan, magsiraan at gumastos ng malaki para sa lang sa isang pwesto na hindi naman panghabang buhay pero pwedeng magbigay ng kakaibang karangyaan at yaman na kayang kaya ibigay ng tatlo hanggang anim na taong “panunungkulan.”

Pulitiko—Para sa mga bata, sila yung mga nagbabahay bahay at namimigay ng pamaypay, kendi, grocery, kapirasong papel na may pangalan nila at picture na may nakaipit na bente, singkwenta, isandaan at minsan mas higit pa, sila din yung may maingay na sasakyan na naglilibot sa kalsada, at kung ano ano ang gusto ipahatid sa pamamagitan ng mga jingle. Sila din yung mapapanood sa t.v, may kasamang bigating artista, minsan naman, ang kasama nila si P-noy.

Pulitiko—Para sa mga teenagers, sila yung mga nagbabahay bahay at namimigay ng pamaypay, kendi, grocery, kapirasong papel na may pangalan nila at picture na may  nakaipit na bente, singkwenta, isandaan at minsan mas higit pa, sila din yung may maingay na sasakyan na naglilibot sa kalsada, at kung ano ano ang gusto ipahatid sa pamamagitan ng mga jingle. Sila din yung mapapanood sa t.v, may kasamang bigating artista, minsan naman, ang kasama nila si P-noy. Minsan, nakokornihan sa mga commercial ng mga pulitiko, lalo na yung ang galang masyado, porke’t magalang yung apelyido. Marunong na kumilatis kung ano ba yung papogi lang at yung may ibubuga din. Minsan nala-last song syndrome sa mga jingle na paulit ulit.

Pulitiko—Para sa mga matatanda na, sila yung mga nagbabahay bahay at namimigay ng pamaypay, kendi, grocery, kapirasong papel na may pangalan nila at picture na may nakaipit na bente, singkwenta, isandaan at minsan mas higit pa, sila din yung may maingay na sasakyan na naglilibot sa kalsada, at kung ano ano ang gusto ipahatid sa pamamagitan ng mga jingle. Sila din yung mapapanood sa t.v, may kasamang bigating artista, minsan naman, ang kasama nila si P-noy. Minsan, nakokornihan sa mga commercial ng mga pulitiko, lalo na yung ang galang masyado, porke’t magalang yung apelyido. Marunong na kumilatis kung ano ba yung papogi lang at yung may ibubuga din. Minsan nala-last song syndrome sa mga jingle na paulit ulit. May kakayahan na iboto ang mga karapat dapat sa nasabing pwesto. Maaring ibenta ang kalayaan sa pagboto. Maaring masilaw sa pangakong maaring hindi matupad. Pwedeng makinig at hindi sa mga pulitiko at sa mga news anchor at sa mga comedian na may concert sa Araneta, na tumutulong o maaring hindi sa pamamagitan ng mga tips/parinig/direktang pagtuligsa. Minsan napapakinggan at napapanood ng mga bata at teenagers kung paano nila, purihin, libakin o murahin ang iba’t ibang pulitiko.

Iba’t iba po ang tingin namin sa inyo, alam niyo po naman yata yun. Sa general na pagtingin, negative po talaga ang tingin namin sa inyo. Alam po namin na may maganda po kayong intensiyon, pero ang tanong lagi bang maganda ang intensiyon niyo, o kaya lang nagmumukhang maganda ang hangarin niyo ay dahil parang pa-kunswelo de bobo niyo na lang po sa amin ang binasag at sinirang maayos na kalsada para kunwari inaayos. Sorry po. Di niyo naman po kami masisisi. Palit po tayo ng kalagayan. Para malaman niyo po.

Hindi pa po ako nakaligo sa dagat ng basura o nakakita ng zombie na bumuboto o kaya ay nag-“po” ng nag-“po” kahit naman di na kelangan, pero ang sarap nga po talagang mambato ng buko sa mga walang kwentang pulitiko at makita si Bossing na nag-gi-gitara. Pero isa lang po ang hiling ko, sana po sa nalalapit na halalan, at manalo kayo, makita na po  kami ng pagbabago kahit konti lang. Kahit na ang paghiling na ito ay ang pag-asang makakita ng tooth fairy o mabigyan ng regalo ni Santa Clause.

Eto na naman po tayo, nasa finish line na ng pagpili kung sino ba ang karapat dapat or may mga ibang di rin karapat dapat kaso nahalal pa din, at pu-pwesto na naman sa likod ng linyang may nakasulat na “Start” at may ilang taon na naman nating dadamhin ang umaatikabong ___________________.  (Pumili ng karapatdapat na ilagay para sa puwang: kurapsyon ng mga re-elected at new elected epal sa gobyerno, pagbabago sa pamahalaan at pagtupad ng kanilang mga plataporma at pangako, kahirapan na bonggang bongga plus 10 x 100, or pagsakop ng alien dahil sa natuwa sila sa ating mga ‘Pinoy dahil napakadali nating mauto at di na tayo nadala kaya applicable na applicable tayong maging alipin ng mga extra terrestrial na madaming mata at kamay.)

Ngayon at nasa tamang edad na para bomoto, maaring maging malaking diperensya ang boto ko. Hindi pala. Malaking diperensya talaga. Kaya sir, ma’am, goodluck po! Sa amin po nakasalalay ang future nyo, maaring maghirap kayo dahil sa amin, pero malamang, mapanalo man namin kayo o hindi, malaki ang posibilidad na di pa din magbago kung ano ang kalagayan naming ngayon at sa susunod na eleksyon. After 3 years, maririnig ulit namin kung ano yung mga sinasabi niyo sa TV, flyers, leaflets. Malamang.

Ma’am, sir, naisip ko lang, para pa lang tayong mag-asawa, pinili kita, kasi nagtiwala ako sa’yo, naniwala sa mababangong pangako mo, bibigyan mo ko ng magandang buhay at mapayapang pamumuhay, kaso, nawalan ka ng panahon sa akin, nanlamig ka at inuna ang mga personal na kaligayahan at pangarap na ang sabi mo, noong nililigawan mo ‘ko ay ang mapaglingkuran ako ang siyang makakapagpasaya sa’yo. Kaya kahit na gusto kong kumalas na sa’yo, ay wala akong magagawa dahil sa’yo na nakadepende ang kinabukasan ko. Isang maamong kuneho na nag-evolve sa nakakatakot na buwaya after ng eleksyon.

Ganoon ka ba? Hindi? Weh? Sige na nga, apir!

Lubos na umaasa,

Noypi

Distance Intervention

In the middle of the night, with the sturdy elevated setting, as the rain tickles the pleased roof, she stared in the dim light of the lampshade. Sandman won’t visit her.

                The whispering coldness of the night makes her system awake, or is it the pouring rain? Or she’s just missing someone who makes sweet animation in her core in the wintry night?

                The frigid agitation is familiar. She turned her back to the wimpy light of the lampshade, and faced the stern wall. Staring at her shaping shadows, amazed but anxious. She raised her hands and made a graceful dance by her fingers against the shadows, this turned her off. A frantic rush of heavy air, she needs. Her lungs cried for a little relief. She’s in a complete fear. Fear of how wide the space between him and her, grows.

She recollected her waiting memories of him, and it starts to lurch in her yearning coordination.

That radiant smile that complete her day. The severe reaction when he’s jealous which makes him a lot more adorable to the eye. His warm hug like a summer mist that stirs her feelings. His efforts, major or little that uplifts her admiration. The same faith they share. The delicate affection for her that he shows. He’s one of her blessings from above.

After the surge of she thought relentless shift of wonderful moments, she then realized, the vastness of being apart is slowly crushing in. Then a crystal water came running out of her eye. Followed by another one, stubbornly out running the first. Her cozy blanket serves as a savior to the flooding tears. She prevented herself to sob, to keep the pouring sound of rain, transparent. The atmosphere shares her pain. Her body begs for inhalation, she rise from her bed and let the air help her to feel better. She discerned that this twinge of longing will surely arise again.

She believed that he feels the same way too. He’s also waiting, so she will.

That is not the first time, she lost grip, and it won’t be the last.

It’s not the distance which grows, it’s the love that grows warmer. It’s not the love, that was like rain. It’s the distance that surely be over.

K. ♥

Comparative Anatomy of a He and a She

Okay, studying an opposite sex needs a lot of serious cramming. Sometimes, you can foresee where the relationship is going, through the things your partner is showing. If it’s negative, you can prevent bad things that will happen, if it’s a positive, you can make it better.

But if you’re still a rookie on this maneuver, I am happy to help you learn the art of reading body languages, expressions with double meanings and feedback of your partner.

(This is based on experience, personal observation, books and websites that I red and experiments.)

Let’s start in COURTING.

Boy:

1.              1. If a guy is courting you and he give you chocolates, flowers, and cheesy gifts and love letters and take you to special places.

- He likes you very much, that exerting such efforts are easy. In this act, it also shows an obsessive side of a guy, that he is infatuated and expressive. Well, giving gifts doesn’t sometime shows that he really wants your sweet “yes”, though, he needed it, but sometimes, what’s comes first is the undeniably fascination of the suitor that he just want to give you flowers and airmail kisses everyday.

2. If you knew that your suitor was courting somebody else aside from you.

- This is a bad juju, well, he is unserious about you. Period. If he is serious, it was one princess at a time. As far as I know about the Universal Courting Law, the girl only has the right to entertain many suitors.

3. In the whole courting phase, if the guy gets jealous in your exs or male friends.

I suggest that it is about your own perception, darling. Well, you can see this expressive feeling in a good way, you can think that it was, it’s just that he likes you so much that talking or hanging out with guys causes too much chest pain. Or we can also view it in a bad way, because at the first place he has no right to get jealous for he is just your suitor. This is also a bad sign, because if you decided to be with him, and you were officially, his girlfriend, he can be too controlling that causes to much fight and to avoid the battle of reasons, you have to give up a piece, a big piece of your social life.

4. If you are afraid that your suitor will give up on you.

- This is a crystal sign that you like him too. Well, that is true. Maybe you’re just afraid to show to him because you’re not ready yet. But you need to make some effort to make him stay and believe that in the right time, you and him was for each other. Typically, if a guy saw negative signs from the girl he’s courting, he usually, slowly stops. That’s a defense mechanism, baby.

Girl:

1.              1.  If a girl shows appreciation, efforts of thankfulness and electrifying kilig because of your hardwork for her.

- This is a nice sign that he is unto you. In this girl’s manner, I can proudly say, that you’re the topnotcher, my boy. In short, she likes you too, that she expresses it through positive hints like repaying the effort you made though it is not necessary. Fact: This can be tricky. A girl is like a long- hard to spell single word, there is a possibility that she is showing the same signal to her other suitor because she can’t figure out who is the best among you two or three or four or many more. But most of the time, WE are still showing positive indirect affection to the one who stands the best. (Really, I’m one of them. Heeeh. ;D)

2. If the girl has a lot of suitors.

- Okay, this is the phase that. “may the best man win.” Well, if the girl you like looks like Gwyneth Paltrow, Natalie Portman, Kim Kardashian or Anne Curtis, you really need a serious courting strategy. This chic is hot that you are competing against the mob. Mob. I mean, suitors, a lot of suitors.

3. If the girl shows a little attention for you, keeping the stern treatment and only allows you to court her because you’re a family friend.

- Man, you better stop or else you will be shattered in to pieces sooner or later. Stop thinking that she is playing hard to get because clearly, she doesn’t likes you and she just don’t know how to tell you because you’re a family friend or you have given too much teddy bears and cellphone load or maybe she had told many times already but you’re taking it as a joke. You know, there’s a lot more than sticking to fantasy.

4. If a girl courts you.

- This is a rare case, but this is the bottomline, most of the time a girl courts you because she likes you and you don’t like her. So in this scenario, be a man and tell her what you feel though you will definitely hurt her. But what you did can change her whole life because she can wake up to the dream that you and her have a chance. Getting cut off is a bitter process, but atleast she learned, right?

Girlfriend-Boyfriend Chapter

Boy:

1.               1. If you asked your boyfriend if he wants something, and he refuses.

- In this case, it’s better to ask him twice, in the first attempt, like, “Babe, want a cookie?” and he says no, ask him again just to make sure he doesn’t like it, for example, “Babe, you REALLY don’t want a cookie?”. If he still refuses, that means two things, he really don’t like it or he is really into playing-shy-guy.

2. If you feel that you are competing with his past girlfriends or the girls he courted before.

- This is normal, everyone gets jealous, even your dog gets jealous. So don’t take this in an awful way, this is healthy because you shows that you don’t want to lose your boyfriend. What is not normal is when your boyfriend wants you to compete with them. Stupid. I am really annoyed with this kind of guy. Hey, it is wrong. If your boyfriend really love you, he won’t allow you to hellishly compete with them, because there’s no reason to have a competition. This shows two things: You’re a rebound, second, you are really a rebound.

3. If you’re boyfriend is a DoTA player.

- In short he’s the coolest man in town, aside from varsity players, frat guys, rock band member or actual cool guys. Also he’s addicted on playing computer games. But here’s the deal, you don’t have to compare yourself. Everybody needs space. Everybody needs to be happy. He might be happy by your side but he could be happier if he can do the things he wants to, without you stopping him. Don’t refrain him from playing DoTA or any computer games, or any recreational activity he is up to. Because those things completes him. If you tell him or ask him if who would he choose, you or playing DoTA that will be the point that he will wonder what or who will he choose someday.

4. “I hate you.”

- He means it. Swear. Based on personal experience. A girl can say “I hate you.” But it is more or less 70% not true because of acute brief insanity because of emotional distress. A guy was sometimes tough and stiff that he only said stupid things once. He can only say things when he already can’t hold it in. He usually keeps things that he wanna say to himself to save him and the relationship stake. If my boyfriend wants to break up with me, I’ll just accept it, because he means it. And when he came crawling back, I won’t accept him anymore. I have two reasons, first, I will stand on my belief that a man has a one word, in short, it is to save my victorious pride, second, I know, I will realize that he was a sissy after all.

Girl:

1.                   1.   If the girl wants you to shoulder some pieces of her shopping spree.

- A girl is materialistic, by birth. It’s up to her to control it. You can buy her stuffs that your financial capability can bear. But don’t let her invade your own personal money for her luxuries, don’t give her things that she doesn’t need and you can’t afford, you will surely loose many friend, brother.

2. “I’m Okay.”

- This is crafty. Most of the time, it is actually not Okay. A girl plays strong always. But you need to be with her side everytime. That’s the best you can do. Sometimes, we don’t say all the things we want to avoid drama. It’s in our boyfriends’ sensitivity to check us if we’re okay, or if we’re really okay.

3. If you’re girlfriend is one with the party people.

- Girls love parties. Well, some of them. Socializing is one reason. Better understand her. Give her personal space like he did to you. She’s a party people before you know her. She don’t need to change just because you believe in the etiquette of relationship. Let’s admit that [some] guys saw quiet, shy and home buddy girls are boring, right boys? In your concern about the possibility of her, getting hook up with other guys, or worst, get laid, just always tell her that wherever she’ll go, she have your trust and that’s important, it’s up to her to break it or keep it. It was like an oath of being a good girl and also a tap in her conscience. Hihihi.

4. “Talk To The Hand.”

- A girl’s emotion can burst unknowingly. I suggest that you both, gives each other a distance, a healthy time out. To think, collect and realize what had happen. Silence is peace. After the healthy time out, which did not range for too long, as much as possible, you better talk and reconcile. But don’t talk, if you’re still mad, or you’re not ready to open your mind. You should have an understanding perception. Communication ready. But if you’re still not ready, don’t ask or go for a pep talk because it will lead to a fight again. Give up your pride and everything will be a piece of cake.

MUTUAL UNDERSTANDING

Boy:

1.              1.    If the guy suddenly didn’t text you or he stops communicating with you.

- M.U is a confusing phase, it’s between the duration of the stage, “Is it still crush or it’s already love?” Sensitive in many sorts. There are many reason why, he maybe, realize that he really don’t like you, but he already said that he loves you, so to escape from the shameful misinterpretation, he will just stop talking to you, a guy is a natural snitch. Another example, you we’re away from the keyboard but your FB account or any social networking site that you appears as online, and then, he chatted you, of course he’ll get no response, he will leave tons of messages, and surely, you will not notice it, and then he will start to think crazy ideas and stupid things, like you don’t like him anymore, so the wrong defense mechanisms kicked in and he will just leave you hanging, thinking, what’s wrong.

2. “I love you.”

- You’re in the middle of a mutual unidentified understanding, so it might be pretty easy to reply with this words, but as I said in number 1, this phase is confusing. So, as an advice, if you don’t know what to say, don’t lie and don’t reply with such positivity because there’s a big chance that you will hurt him and yourself. “Thank you, HAHAHA, Wow, Okay.” Will be an appropriate words to say than lying.

3. If the guy wants to bring your understanding in to the next level.

- Next level. This means he wants you to be officially his girlfriend. But look, if you’re still not yet ready for this chapter, you don’t have to rush. If he really loves you, he will wait for you. There’s only one reason for him to rush thing, maybe he was confused. He might seeing somebody else aside from you, and he don’t know who is who. To stop his confusion, he will see who is ready to be her girlfriend. If you’re aware of this trick, don’t fall, especially when you’re not ready, I told you twice now. It’s like, you really know that a lion will eat you, but you still lock yourself in its cage. In harsh short words, you’re SILLY. Well, being stupid in relationship is quite common. So in the end, it’s up to your decision. Atleast you learn, whatever happen, and that’s the best part, mi love.

4. If he kissed you.

- No biggie. It’s just show that he loves you. I just don’t know what to say, if you already did the other thing more than kissing.

Girl:

1.           1.  If the girl is telling you what and what’s not to do.

- Main thing, this is just an unofficial understanding, so, I really think that the girl has no right to tell you what to do. What she can did, is to suggest. Suggest of what you should do, and it’s up to you to obey it or just go of what you really want. But I really prefer the last choice.

2. “I don’t want to talk about it.”

- This is the usual, common lines of a girl who was been asked of a rushing guy. Okay, guys, read, don’t pressure us, okay? We don’t want to hurt you, that’s why, we were not making decisions so quick. Well, most of us. We were not depending on sugar rush or too much kilig you brought. We think. Thinking carefully.

Here’s the deal, my capability to tell you what is happening is limited. Well, it is up to your choice if you’ll take it as a good vibrations or bad. Because, every kiss in the forehead, smirk, holding hands, smile, tears, words, truths, and lies can change the direction of a romance.

So in the conclusion of this enigma, the answer is vested upon you. It’s still your choice to be happy. But this is what you have to remember, whatever you’ll choose, just believe that you’ll be happy with it. Don’t think that you’ll gonna regret it in the future. We have the art of free will. And then, if ever you fail, you’ll say, “Atleast, I made my own decision.”

Have a good one, love! ♥

Sky Of Love ♥

      In this whole summer vacation, I’ve been pampered by the warm weather’s miasma, though it became bad in some ways. In this sultry climate, I used to spend my time, reading or collecting my thoughts in our hammock, neglecting all human’s avant garde sphere.

      Then, I sudden appreciate sky’s beauty. I don’t know. I realize that sky makes all things beautiful. Sky’s blessing. Sky of love.

       I snap some photos to show you that I am under a very wonderful swell of clouds and amazing endless blue skies.

Reach for the skies.

I adore li'l kids. :)

Photos taken by me and baby sister.

     Sky cuts distance. I mean, whenever I look up in the sky, I am always thinking how lovely it would be if I am with someone I love right now. But then, I realized that, I don't need to think to much, for I know we were under the same, amazing blue skies. ♥ 

Past and Furious

It is real that when we explain things we might use the wrong words, that things will go much more complicated.

Talking about your past lovers with your present seems human nature's scheme. Because you can't avoid things to be burst out in a conversation. But the thing is, we should put grounds in what we are telling because we might not know whats the feeling of your partner while you are talking about your ex's.

Usually, an ex was an example of how bad a relationship goes. So in a present relationship, you should talk about it to learn lessons on what to do.

Honestly, it's really hard to listen on how your present tells how much he became happy in his past. It is hard to pretend that you didn't heard something or you are agreeing on what he is saying. It brings bitterness and insecurities in many kind.

You can not avoid to as if "compete" because you know that he really thinks that his ex is better than you.

In the other hand, the other one that listens should accept what he is saying. Yes, it is hard but the point was, you listened. Because what he is telling was the low point of his life and it's your task to take his troubles to let him feel that it is okay and he is not alone. It's a plus.

We can't tell if a relationship is good or bad, what we can tell is a good relationship shares a good communication. The openness of a communication is a healthy way for a long term two way relationship. It was like you can say that, "Hey, I really don't want to talk about this, but if it can clear your feelings, proceed." See, honesty plus you really expressed what you are feeling.

You should play the role.

Maybe there's no sign that he still inlove or he was through with his ex. The assurance is, everything will be fine if you wash away insecurities, bitterness and doubts and depend on trust, love and honesty.

EXISTENCE- 19 Years

For the information of my readers, I celebrated my birthday last Feb. 20, 2013. Yesterday. I bet you knew this feeling, that feeling when your birthday is approaching and you're expecting things will turn out the way you want it and there's the question, "What if, it won't happen the way I want it?"

[Can I have a little commercial here? Well, I really really really thank my mama and papa for bringing me on this world, because without them, I may not enjoy this kind of joy celebrating my birthday. I love you!]

FYI, I really squeeze my birthday in the legal holidays indicated in my planner, because 20th of February will be my time to shine and be fancy just the way I want it.

I'm pretty nervous of how my special day will roll, though I am pretty much happy because I got so many greetings in any kind.

Moving on, by fate or through my strong prayers, our prof didn't attend for our last subject so, my super friends namely, Jerson, Jewel, Imelda, Krishan, James, Elogene, Gem, Jed (?), and some good pals, decided to make our own version of the very popular free style dance The Harlem Shake, I'll post my video, love, we got some sort of editings to do. But making that video was the most hilarious phase of my day. That was so fun! We laugh, dance our ass out, and laugh again.

Anyway, after that super epic dance, we pull out the pizza which Ate Imelda brought for me, which brings kilig. Hihi. We stopped by to buy some Milk Tea to freshen up and then went to the garden to eat. We took pictures and laugh again. Laugh. Laugh. Laugh.

Yes, this is far better than my 18th birthday. As in. I hoped that we can really stop the time. -_-

At 9:30pm, I have to attend my devotional prayer, in that way, I am also meeting someone... special.

After seeing him, I concluded that, my 19th birthday was the best-est birthday so far. Yes!

Wanna know what I received for my birthday? :)

Shakey's Pizza c/o Ate Imelda

Super sweet card, and super sweet treat from an awesome friend, Jerson Plaviano.

I cried when I read the card. I was like, this was real?

From Sir Ian, Thankyou sir! :)

Aton's Treat

This was so rad. I was like, OMG x 100000.

This candle has an issue. :) And I won't tell. :D

Doodle.

This really brings the tears. 

I will let you watch the full video when I finished uploading it. Hihi.

Plus gifts from Astron: Piggyback ride and a full blast of Harlem Shake. Thank you labs! :*

Well, I didn't really received materials things here, but most of all, what I received is precious efforts, time and love.

Thank you guys for being a part of my celebration attaining 19 years of existence! Ang saya, bente na baon ko! :D

And for this, I will not waste any single effort you vested on me. Promise! I'll be good. :))

Pretty sleepy. -_- Goodnight, loves. Thanks for reading.

 EXISTENCE: 18 and 1/8 years old.

Sugar Rush 2Hours before Valentines

At February 13, things go epic.

I do not actually celebrate Valentines for some reasons, first, it's against religious grounds, second, it is too overrated that it became so much cheesy and corny. Eeew.

13th of February, I get myself tired because of rehearsals, academic stuffs, workshop which really shake my energy to the.. lets say, 98th level. And I'm too drained, and unfortunately, I have to walk myself home on about 2 km.

That time, I had to meet this wonderful guy to bade my goodbye because I'm planning to go home in Pangasinan to escape and take a leave from my manpower duty. Hiiih.

We meet half way home, talked a bit, he insisted to take my paper bag which I am carrying all way long, and  where I put my working clothes.

I am really grateful that we met, bade goodbyes for we won't see each other for atleast 3days. Eheeeh.

I attended a church meeting around 9PM.. And my energy level was decreased by 1% from 2%, do the Math.

I am retiring in my bed when I remembered to fix my messy used clothes before sleeping, and I noticed a checkered box on the paper bag, I curiously recollected where did I got this box, and oh! I remember, Aton, did hold my bag. It took me by surprise, and sugar rushed. My sleepiness faded and took a peek of what he got for me.. Here it was..

He's sooo magalang. :D

This will really make you sugar rushed, or kilig. :D

Hihihi. <3 I may not have a romantic date or I may not slammed at the UP Fair, atleast I have chocolates and good handwritten letter. :)

This is how my Valentines roll. :D

Zombie mind, 5th day

Okay, I can't hold it in.. I'm randomly, okay, mostly, pre-occupied in this whole 5 centuries because of you..

Why I'm missing this jerk? Why he's not texting me for the past five days? Okay, busy? Well, I guess no. And then why?

You really don't mind if someone is missing you, right? Selfish. You didn't realize that someone is thinking of you every now and then, worrying if you're fine or not. But I guess, you are sooo fine, noob.

I will burn everything you gave in your doorway. Or better yet, I will burn your doorway and your house down.

Well, this is all I wanna say, just take care because I'm worrying a lot. Sleep on time and don't get yourself too drunk. I hope you'll always have a goodnight sleep without any bad dreams. I hope you eat healthy foods, on time. Keep yourself happy. Eliminate stress. Smile. Laugh and live your life to the fullest.

This is me, worried on your whereabouts.

I hate you I miss you, asshole.

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     I might know a lot but I knew you. I might been happy with many but I became happier with you. I may forget them but I won't forget you.

     How you laugh, how you made me laugh. How you held my hand, and how I held yours. It was like yesterday through that fancy sunset along the bay.

     Pick up the pieces, along the memoirs of the sight, sky turning blue to shades of yellow and oranges to the clasping serenity of the starry night.

     The smiles with our weary feet escaping the streets. As we challenged each others' energy through the ecstatic light of the city which was sweet.

I might meet many, but I met you. I might look for many, but I'm still finding you. I might walk to someone but my way was leading to you.

I might not see you in the crowded roads of foolish hearts, but atleast I feel that it's not the end but our start.

I might run out of love but you won't, I might cry my heart out, but you'll stay strong to solve the puzzles that plays as our distance apart.

You're like a book I timelessly read in the night of bliss, with my favorite words, full of surprises and forever I'll cherish.

You're the science, I'm looking for. You're the faith that I'm praying for. Lovely moments we shared might be forgotten in the hands of time unfold.

But not my love for you. We will be drifted apart, but not in our hearts. In our dreams we can still tell stories and hold hands.

I kissed the morning dew and hugged the singing sunshine, with our hearts apart but I will meet you in the finish line.

Longing will be repay sooner, because I believe in you.. Last three words in this lyric of love for you.. I miss you, love. It is true.

-Kimberley